Circumstances may change during the life time, either you are the trigger or not. Even in worst case you should find a part to enjoy your life, otherwise you might be ending with a lot of missed opportunities....

"Buyuk Kaptan, yillarca profesyonelliginle, kazanma arzunla, is ahlakinla bizi kendine hayran kildin...yuvana hosgeldin! "


Opportunity = Right timing x Right place

this my first msg on the go! via cellspin..

Noah Lists

There was a website long time ago noah.monu.net something like this where he posted his list as 'I want a girl' me and a good friend really enjoyed that reading several years ago although I am not a list guy... the site is not living for time being but I just found a copy of it from my old files ... As original as posted..

i want a girl...


1.who likes pink floyd.
2.who has no opinion of pink floyd, but decides to feign negativity to get me to waive no. 1 as an experiment.
3.who is no stranger to the graveyard shift.
4.who follows up those things that interest her.
5.who understands the empty and bleak reality of nature alone, and understands the associated self-reliant concepts that come with that idea.
6.who has a good understanding of what she knows and an equally good understanding of how little that is.
7.who knows that no. 6 isn't offensive and that we all know very little.
8.who can describe sound textures.
9.who seeks precision in her diction.
10.who knows that the only thing to fear is fear itself (and scary looking guys in alleys).
11.who is already scoffing at this silly list.
12.who i'll only be able to understand to the point where i know what i don't understand about them, and who realizes that illusions of total understanding would only be detrimental.
13.who listens to things before reacting. really.
14.who is at ease by default.
15.who likes museums.
16.who shows me her creative side.
17.who won't make me feel like the failure i often make myself feel like.
18.who likes toys.
19.who doesn't consider 3 hours spent selecting a font to be wasted time.
20.who doesn't understand the concept of boredom. (or does, but can't relate.)
21.who lets me feel like i'm important sometimes, and chuckles a little because of it.
22.who likes to read.
23.who has a love for the simpsons which borders on being unhealthy.
24.who can appreciate the property of oddity about certain things which make them funny regardless of their content.
25.who can laugh at some of the most heinous examples of such oddity, knowing that heinousness is nothing particularly special.
26.who understands what i mean when i say "fucked up."
27.who appreciates the glory of a flat silent aural platform as much as the glory of handel's messiah.
28.who doesn't mind me saying 'egad' or giggling like a homeric schoolgirl.
29.who knows that 'homeric' in no. 30 refers to homer simpson.
30.who can formulate ways to apply 'homeric,' referring to the epic poet homer this time, to the word 'schoolgirl' in a meaningful or interesting way.
31.who can keep a healthy round of simpsons dialog up for long, long amounts of time.
32.who makes me smile.
33.who will engage in good conversation about thoughts and issues provoked by books we're reading.
34.who knows her way around a computer.
35.who can appreciate beauty in its infinite variety of forms.
36.who likes hearing about (playing?!) dark castle
37.who expects me to be doing something this crackbrained around 6am on sunday morning (or any morning, realistically).
38.who knows that i just checked "crackbrain" on the dictionary.
39.who thinks it's funny to have talking dictionary software "pronounce" the word "crackbrain" and "crackpot" a few times ... just to be sure.
40.who likes cartoons.
41.who has diverse taste in food.
42.who interprets events with an always open mind.
43.who calls me 'boy'.
44.who understands the power she has over me, and is benevolent.
45.who doesn't look to me for entertainment.
46.who tells stories including different details in different tellings so that they never get boring.
47.whose hands like being in mine.
48.who likes champagne, hot tubs, and snow.
49.who likes sushi.
50.who will scratch my head.
51.whose caress immediately triggers a chemical rush of ecstatic happy feeling.
52.who does fun things with her hair.
53.who may not watch any of the things i watch but makes stylistic connections between different quotes i might randomly say. and finds that amusing.
54.who can derive amusement from her thoughts at almost any given moment.
55.who understands the inherent quality of great music not attuned to her taste.
56.who realizes that the inherent quality should make it good, but she still doesn't like it ... and tries to give reasons for this.
57.who can follow my thoughts.
58.who finds christ-bashing funny, but harbors little real malice for religiophiles. probably was once deeply appalled by the foul plague of religion, though having immediately arrived at a more mature attitude is probably a plus? i suppose that's up for debate, but i'm losing track of my "list structure" here. so back i go.
59.who will listen to something that doesn't make sense, without saying anything, and then try and figure it out for awhile, and then describe impressions that the string of words produced, in an effort to understand the conversation. mmm ... abstract conversation ...
60.who makes me think of new things for this list.
61.who knows that donuts can and should be eaten at all times of the day.
62.who makes me feel right with the world.
63.who thinks of at least one game per day (on average, you know, there are those days where you'll think up the entire month's worth of games right then).
64.who likes word games.
65.who i can sing descendents lyrics around without feeling (too) embarrassed.
66.who likes to mess with me, and is really good at it.
67.who knows how easy it would be to mess with me.
68.who feels like there isn't enough pure randomness and likes to contribute her own simple (complex is perfectly fine too) unpredictability.
69.to love, and who loves me

Denememeler...

Hayat bazen insana oyle tuhaf oyunlar oynar ki, dort yol agzinda karar vermek icin saatlerce bazen gunlerce dusunursun.. Belkide aslinda cogunlugun yaptigi gibi gozunu kapatip icinden gelen sese yonelmelisin......

Dusun dusun, hayatini sekillendir camuru ellerinle sekillendirdigin gibi
Yillarca cabala, debelen dur, essek gibi didin
Sonra bir anda durup ne oluyoruz diye baktiginda
Halla dort yolun basindamisindir acaba ?

Degilsen, sanslisin sukretmeyi bil....